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As Featured on…IOU Sports | NGWSD: What’s YOUR Dream?

Happy New Year…hopefully, your 2011 is off to a stellar start!

As I concluded in my last post, sport has laid the foundation for my dreams to come true, which then led me to urge    you to think about what magical change or difference you could make for a girl or group of girls to get her and her peers active in sport and physical education. This call to action from weeks ago still feels just as relevant on the heels of Martin Luther King, Jr. Day and with the 25th annual celebration of National Girls and Women in Sports Day (NGWSD) happening tomorrow—Wednesday, February 2, 20011. Both of these days of honor and celebration are my motivation for this month’s musings.

This past MLK Jr. Day, I was most inspired by the many quotes that crossed my path and particularly this one, “Injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere,” which I saw connecting to another one of his phrases I found, “Freedom is never voluntarily given by the oppressor; it must be demanded by the oppressed.” Together these two quotes led me to yet another one that reminded me that justice and freedom is a constant struggle. Dr. King states, “Change does not roll in on the wheels of inevitability, but comes through continuous struggle. And so we must straighten our backs and work for our freedom.” Furthermore, “Human progress is neither automatic nor inevitable… Every step toward the goal of justice requires sacrifice, suffering, and struggle; the tireless exertions and passionate concern of dedicated individuals.” That said, we stand on the shoulders of the numerous men AND women who fought for civil rights alongside and in conjunction with Dr. King and as we stand among giants, each step we take with passion and dedication is one step closer towards justice and freedom.

So, I ask…what’s YOUR dream? For you? Your family? Your community? The country? The world?

Similarly, when I think about NGWSD, I am reminded of the first time I celebrated the day. It was February 2004 and I was asked to speak to group of girls who had gathered at Vanderbilt University to celebrate the day. It was a special moment that I will never forget as I was given the opportunity to share knowledge of Title IX and my love of sport. What’s more, it’s one of those moments I am reminded of when I read about the injustice that continues to happen within women’s sport and furthermore, when women’s sport is viewed in the larger context of sport. The fight is definitely not over as the UCONN’s women’s basketball team knows all too well when they surpassed the UCLA men’s team record for consecutive wins and little fanfare was given to them nor to the Stanford’s women’s basketball team who broke their 90-game winning streak. I guess the media forgot that many sports fans are just as interested in this information or more so than the college bowl games that were ruling the airwaves.

So, I ask…what’s YOUR dream? For you? Your family? Your community? The country? The world?

Again, going back to women’s college basketball as an example of where justice in women’s sport still needs to be served, I will take a moment to highlight “a crime without a body” that’s taking place to lure student-athletes to come to their programs. That crime is negative recruiting. Simply stated, negative recruiting is “the practice of playing on stereotypes to deter recruits from attending rival athletic programs by alleging or implying that a rival coach or team members are gay or lesbian” (2010, Griffin). It’s the dirty little secret that few people want to talk about until now. ESPN The Magazine just featured an article on this very subject on their website that will be in the upcoming issue of the magazine titled, “On homophobia and recruiting.” The article does a fantastic job of discussing both sides of the argument—I suggest you read it—while making it clear that women’s sports are being left in the dust of “the inexorable sweep of change in the world beyond the court” (2011, Cyphers & Fagan).

So, I ask…what’s YOUR dream? For you? Your family? Your community? The country? The world?

I Dream…

I dream of a world that truly provides freedom & justice for all.

I dream of true equity for women where we are no longer exploited for pleasure, power, or profit.

I dream of love being the driving force in education instead of testing.

I dream of Life, Liberty, and the Pursuit of Happiness for all regardless of social identity.

I dream of the day the definition of “family” is redefined to be more inclusive.

I Dream…

 

Let me know your dreams by following me in between my posts here at IOU Sports: www.jillian4justice@wordpress.com!

 

~ One Love

CALL 2 ACTION: Check out NGWSD Central where you can find out the History of the day, find out how to Take Action and Events taking place in your area, as well as Media information and Get Materials.

References:

Cyphers, L. & Fagan, K. (2011, February 7). “On homophobia and recruiting.” ESPN The Magazine. Retrieved on January 28, 2011 from http://sports.espn.go.com/ncw/news/story?id=6060641.

Griffin, P. (2010). Cross campus engagement ensuring fair treatment of LGBT student-athletes: Issues and resources. NCAA Convention, Atlanta, GA. Retrieved on February 1, 2011 from http://athletesrathletes.typepad.com/files/ncaa-full-presentation-1.ppt.

Part 2 of 2 | My Interview with Alana Nichols: Mastering Whatever It Is, One “Ridiculous Dream” at a Time…

Now that I have shared Alana’s story prior to the 2010 Winter Paralympics, what follows is the remainder of my interview with her, which focuses on her journey to the games, her experience of winging her first gold medal of the games, and what’s next…

Jillian (J): Switching gears tell me about your road from the court to the slopes.

Alana (A): That was a wild ride … I can’t say exactly when I had this ridiculous dream of going to Beijing and then immediately turning around and trying to go to Vancouver. I can’t pinpoint the day that it happened but I remember the 2006 Paralympic Winter Games in Torino were happening and while watching … having that itch to be a part of it. I had always kept it on the backburner since I’ve always gone skiing while I was playing basketball … I would maybe get 5-7 days in a season. In my mind, I was working toward the Winter Paralympics every time. I wanted to get better right then and that’s just the athlete mentality in that I want to master this [ski racing] or whatever it is.

And so, that’s when I think the whole road started to the Vancouver Games started. The journey officially began immediately after Beijing, when I called up the coach—Erik Petersen at the National Sports Center for the Disabled (NSCD) in Winter Park and I shared that I wanted to come visit because I wanted to be a ski racer. He was like, “Well, I guess we’ll cross that bridge when we come to it. If you can make it out here, we would love to have you in our program.” I actually … did a visit out to his program right before I left for Beijing and we sat down for lunch. … It was then that I told him I had never even seen ski racing, I mean technically I had but I didn’t know anything about it; however, it was my goal to go to Vancouver in 2010. And he looked at me and said, “Umm…are you sure about that? You might want to set your sights on the 2014 Games in Sochi. I was like, “Nah, I think I want to go to Vancouver.” And [I could tell he was thinking], “this is girl crazy.” And he hadn’t seen me ski or anything at that point.

To be perfectly honest, I didn’t know what I was doing but I did know that I had set the bar really high and that I had this ridiculous dream. I say ridiculous because if you look at it on paper it’s ridiculous. You can’t just do that, but it turns out that everything I was doing athletically for wheelchair basketball was preparing me to be a monoskier. My core, my obliques, my upper body, and some of the hip movements you have to have in wheelchair basketball is exactly like mono-skiing, so I was technically training for the Vancouver Games when I started playing wheelchair basketball in 2003.

My coach pretty much shut me down and I was like, “Well, we’ll see how that works out.” It was a year and half ago, … October 2008, when I first started monoski racing and I was not even getting on the lift by myself. I was falling off every time—I’d fall, get back up, fall, etc. I had skied a fair good bit before I moved to Winter Park, but I had never skied independently because I always had an instructor that skied behind me at the very least. I was really just a big pile of rawness. In fact, … the first day I went skiing with my coach—the coach from NSCD—he didn’t really know where I was at as a skier and basically said, “Okay, go ahead a take a couple of warm-up runs and we’ll see you around noon.” And, I was like, “Wait a minute, what do you mean? By myself, right now? Like get on the lift by myself? I can’t, what are you doing?” He pretty much threw me out of the nest and that was probably the best thing I could have asked for/had done for me because it really forced me to fend for myself and learn how to get on the lift after I had fallen off six times a day.

In other words, my first season in Winter Park at NSCD was a whole lot of work. I was fortunate enough to have huge support from my grandma as well as a good family friend that gave me the money to be able to ski five days a week, not have to have a job, and be able to still pay rent. We train five days a week for about four hours a day, making it a hugely elite program, so it just all came together for me to get good as fast as I could. Then last May I was nominated to the US developmental team that was just like, “This is crazy. This is happening.”

It’s crazy because my first season I had to win a certain number of races to make that team, and being such a rookie I didn’t have any idea I needed to win those races I was just skiing. I really give a lot of credit to my naiveté, if you will. Just being naïve to everything I was like, “I’m [just] going to race.” And, I ended up winning two national titles my first season of racing. I just won the races that mattered, so I got named to the US team and then this season I ended up traveling for the first time internationally. This January 2010 I went to Europe for the World Cup and it was ugly. I was kind of a wreck. Our first races were in Austria and Austria’s snow is so different then in the US and being from Colorado powder and soft snow is really all I know. Well, I got to Austria and they ski on ice … I ended up falling and not finishing four out of my five races in Austria, so that was a huge learning experience.

I liken it to getting kicked in the teeth everyday but you get up. To be honest, I cried every single time, which I’m not embarrassed to say because I’m passionate about it and I don’t want to lose and I don’t want to not perform at my best. Racing is so different from basketball in that you have one chance—one minute maybe a minute and half, if that, to perform at your highest without making any mistakes. In basketball, if you turn over the ball or miss a free throw you didn’t just lose the game. In ski racing, you make a turn a little wider than the other girl you lose by a tenth or a hundredth of a second, so every day in Austria I would wake up and try to shake it off. I say, “You know what that was yesterday. Today is today. I learned something from that and I’m going to apply it.” So, super frustrating but a big learning experience for me.

And then, we went from Austria to Italy for the speed races, which is more my forte, and I ended up getting third in the first race and I won the second and the third race. Then I was like, “Okay, I’m feeling good about this world competition thing. But still, I didn’t have it in my mind that I’m going to go to Vancouver and win two gold medals, silver, and a bronze; no way!” I left Europe with a really good feeling of “I think I can do this. I think I can be really good.” I didn’t have any expectations, especially since I left thinking, “… [what a] really cool experience waking up every day and riding the lift and seeing the Alpine glow and the Italian Alps. I don’t care if I suck at this sport, I want to keep doing it.” Plus, for me, it’s so beautiful and a really cool concept getting people with severe disabilities up on a mountain and then racing down …

Anyways, getting to Vancouver was just like a real whirlwind because I was still just learning and refining my skills. Going into Vancouver we had our World Cup Finals, which is the culmination of the European races. I did really well there—I won two globes, which is an overall title for winning or competing the best in the five events—Downhill, Super G, Giant Slalom, Slalom, and Super Combined (more info). That was like, “Wow. Okay.” I started proving to myself that I wasn’t just getting lucky. I was consistently skiing well. I got two globes, so there’s no denying it. … It was like this dream come true. It was all coming together.

I was skiing really well really fast, my athleticism from basketball transferred over really easy, and the biggest thing and the thing I think is so fortunate—I don’t know if I give it up to God or to the universe for making this a fortunate experience—I didn’t hurt myself. Ski racing is very dangerous. My first season I ended up breaking two ribs and injuring my shoulder, but my season going into Vancouver, I skied fast and I didn’t have any hard crashes. Going into Vancouver, I was like, “Well, let’s see what happens here.” And I think part of the reason I was so successful was because I didn’t have those expectations and I just started skiing. In my mind, I thought it would have just been cherry on top if I could medal in Vancouver; however, I had personally set a goal of winning gold in the Downhill and the Super G. The technical races—the Giant Slalom and the Slalom—aren’t really my thing, so I said to myself, “Well, I’ll do my best but I don’t know how it’s going to turn out.” And it turns out the first race, the Slalom I actually fell on my first run, so I didn’t have any hope on the second run to medal at all but it was a good experience to get the jitters out. I was like, “Okay, I did that fine and it can’t get any worse.”

(J): It’s just going to go up…

(A): Exactly, so, my second race was the Giant Slalom (GS)—in GS, you have two runs and the culmination of the times from the first and second run are added together and if you have the least amount of time you win, basically. Like I said, it wasn’t my strongest event but the day we raced it, it rained from morning til night. It was just such a crazy experience because I had never skied in the rain. Although I think that’s what really helped me win because I realized and thought to myself “Everyone else is skiing in it. I’m just going to throw down.” It would have had been a harder race for me if the conditions were perfect. The snow was crazy—it was like slushy and hard and icy and weird.  After my first run I was up by a second and a half. As I go into my second run, … I am getting ready … knowing I have a second and a half lead and that I need to throw down a consistent run, but I can’t have any major mistakes, it raining, and I’m at the Paralympics with a chance to win a gold medal right now. It was really cool because if you win the first run of the GS or the Slalom you get to go last for the second one, so I knew if I made it down that course all I had to do was look up and see if my time was on top. And sure enough, I got through that course and saw my name up top and just glanced at it and exploded into a whaling cry with tears and it was an unpredictable response for me.

It was a very emotional experience because I lost my brother this summer and the only reason I was skiing at that point was because I knew he wanted me to and there were days that I was like, “I hate this!” I was filling my goggles up with tears because I didn’t want to even keep living at that point. I didn’t want to be losing my brother and missing him so bad, but there’s just no doubt in my mind that he would want me to do it. So, I knew that day after feeling like that and all the pain and anguish I went through I had to keep skiing because I knew he wanted me to and I hated him for that [laughing] still thinking, “I don’t want to do this. It sucks.” He was such a big fan and that was the reason I was even at the Paralympics. Then for me to have that happen, everything, it was just the perfect day. And when I crossed the finish line, those tears were not for winning a gold medal. Those tears were for my brother and for the fact that he’s present and still very much a part of my life. It was undeniable that day that he was there. Click here to see highlights (at 1 min) of the race.

I just lost it emotionally that’s what it was, winning my first gold medal as an individual athlete, and then going to the medal ceremony, I was crying before I even got on the podium. I was balling because not only was it my first gold medal [of the Games], but it was the first gold medal for the United States in the Games, so I got to let my whole delegation hear our national anthem for the first time. There was this unbelievable sense of pride and it was an honor. It was such an honor for me to be on the very highest podium and to be respecting our national anthem. I literally wore my gold medal everywhere I went, all night long. I went into this restaurant and everyone there was like, “Oh my god, let me see it. Can I have your autograph?” I went to bed and I set my gold medal next to me on my nightstand and I woke up, no joke, I was like, “Wait a minute. Did that really happen? Did that really just happen? Did I win a gold medal?” And, I looked over and it was there and I was like, “Oh my god that happened. This is so much to process. Whoa.”

(J): And I’m sure still processing…

(A): Yeah, absolutely.

(J): Because that was just the first of four to come.

(A): Yeah, I was just skiing in the moment and that was one of my goals I set out to do and that’s what you have to do with ski racing. If you fall in a race before, you cannot carry that to the next race. You can’t carry that fear of what if you hurt yourself. You can’t carry that disappointment. You have to be forgetful and that’s one of my best qualities. I have a terrible memory. I was able to ski in the moment and without those expectations I was able to just perform and I did. I won the gold in the Downhill, silver in the Super G, and the bronze in the Super Combined, and I’m the most medaled athlete of both the Paralympic and Olympic Games. And that’s kind of a lot to process too.

(J): Yeah, I was going to ask, how is that feeling for you? Without a doubt, you’re still processing, yet I see this as an opportunity to capture what you’re feeling now [May 3, 2010] because maybe one day we can talk about it in a different space. So, how does that feel?

(A): It’s been an interesting dynamic to understand what it all means. I did perform well but I feel so blessed. I was fortunate. I skied well. Everyone wants to go to the Paralympics or the Olympics and have their best run but there are no guarantees. For me, not only did I feel blessed because I was there but I also won the Downhill, which was the ultimate accomplishment for me because that’s my race, that’s what I love, and that to me is the most challenging because you go the fastest and you scare yourself to death, but it’s always like you’re riding that line. And, I was able to have my best run. I won that race by four seconds. Nobody was even close and that was amazing to feel that athletically accomplished.

To win four medal [pauses to ponder], you know is just so hard to process but one of the things I have been really working on is taking ownership of that and remembering what it took to win those and what I need to do to  get better … —even the gold medal runs I can look at and be like, “Okay, I can get better at these things.” And, it’s not about the medals themselves. It’s about being the best you can be as an athlete, and I feel so thankful those are mine and nobody can ever take those away from me, but I also feel like I have a lot of work to do still to reach my peak. I mean winning the gold medal is not the ultimate goal in my career. I want to be the best that I can be and if that means being the best in the world that’s cool too [we both laugh].

I think I still got a lot of learning to do, a lot of growing but one thing about being a Paralympian is that there is this underlying sort of assumption that because we’re Paralympic we’re less than Olympic caliber athletes. We’re second, we go second after the Olympics. We use all the same venues, we’re the second largest sporting event in the world next to the Olympics. It’s huge but there is this sort of an assumption that because we’re Paralympic we’re less and that’s been a huge goal of mine to prove to people that because what I do differently doesn’t mean it takes any less work and it doesn’t mean it takes any less dedication or discipline, so by owning these medals, which is hard because I’m kind of a modest, humble person but it doesn’t help our sport for me to be modest. Yet, it obviously doesn’t help our sport for me to be overly confident either. That’s why I have definitely been trying to take ownership of the fact that I earned these medals and because I’ve put the work in and even though it took me a year and half to do it I did work in that amount of time. I’m just really trying to change the stereotypes of Paralympic athletes that are out there. It’s not this huge stereotype but there are some people that are like, “Oh, it’s just the Paralympics.” And, I’m like, “No, it’s the Paralympics.” That’s not where I’m at.

(J): Okay, so what’s next for Alana Nichols?

(A): Well, I decided to not try out for the basketball team for the 2010 Worlds’ for a competition later in September. That was a really hard decision for me to make but I’m still healing from the loss of my brother. Plus, I’m sort of using the momentum that I got from the Vancouver Games—being a four-time medalist—to help progress my career as a ski racer. I’m doing a lot of public speaking. I’m still trying to find my message there. My story is what people always want to hear, but I also feel like it’s important to be intentional about my message, so I’m working on that a lot. We started training for ski racing in June 2010, so I didn’t have a whole lot of time off and I look forward to possibly making the 2011 Para-PanAmerican Team for basketball and then possibly the 2012 basketball team. It’s still the love of my life, I’m just taking a breather and I’m absolutely looking forward to the 2014 Games in Sochi, Russia.

(J): So, still competing in both sports?

(A): Yeah, I can’t say that’s what I will do for sure, but I’m going to try and I would never compromise one sport for another because I just think that’s a waste of time to split yourself. But, yeah, no job in the future that’s for sure [we both laugh]. I have my master’s in kinesiology and I’d love to use that someday, but I’m definitely just riding the wave of being an athlete, which is great.  I love it—getting to travel, getting to do what you love, and getting to meet really cool people. I couldn’t ask for more really.

(J): And, it’s not going to last forever…

(A): It really isn’t. I’m ridin’ it.

(J):  I’m going to end by asking, what has been the most amazing part of your journey so far? And please, feel free to interpret however you want.

(A): I see what you’re saying about that question, it’s like she won gold medals, isn’t that enough?

(J): I didn’t want to assume you know.

(A): Yeah, I understand. Like I said before, the medal is the outward expression of the work that I have done. The hardest thing I have ever done was continuing to compete after my brother passed away. Beforehand, it was easy for me to compete as an athlete, I love it. It’s easy. Not the work, being in the gym everyday, it’s tough, but I love to do it. I love to make progress and all that. But when I was faced with such a different type of adversity, something that was more emotional and mental that I had to overcome … there was a moment when winning that gold medal, my first gold medal that was the moment that I was like, “I did that and it was the hardest thing I’ve ever done.” And so, I think that’s one of the most amazing parts of the journey but… [pauses to gather her thoughts] I’m just so thankful that I get to go out…oh! I have so many different amazing moments, but one of my huge goals and I’ve had to look for a purpose in ski racing because it’s an individual sport and it’s not enough to me to get all the glory and that be it. That doesn’t matter, I don’t want the glory. It’s great or whatever and it’s a lot of fun to get all the attention—it really is, but for me, I really needed to find something else. When I first broke my back I remember how lonely it was and how lost I was and how bleak and dim my life looked at that point and sport is what gave it to me. And so, I hope I inspire other young women with disabilities because it’s going to be a long life if you can’t find purpose or meaning or confidence and that’s all the things that sport gave me.

And so, I meet this young woman in Vancouver and she was probably 5 or 6 and she was in this tiny little wheelchair and she met me and she was so shy but said, “Oh my god, I’m meeting a gold medalist.” Afterward, I was really sweet with her and everything, I put my gold medal around her neck and she looked at me, this sounds really dramatic, but she told me, “I want to be just like you.” And, to myself, I was like, “Whoa, that’s why I do it.” While I told her, “That’s amazing and I hope that you do. I hope you go out and do whatever you can with whatever you have. If you want to be, you don’t have to be a ski racer, you can do anything. Just go out and do it. Try your hardest and have fun.” And, that was one of the most amazing moments. It was really like one of those full circle moments where I was like, “Okay, that’s why I do this.” And that meant more to me than the gold medal. I’ve heard this from a number of people. They’re just like, “You don’t know how many people have seen you and know what you’re doing and you’re inspiring. I’m just like, “Okay, that’s a lot to process.”

(J): Before I turn off the recorder, I just want to ask, is there anything else you want to say?

(A): … I just hope that other people can experience what I’ve experienced—not as a person with a disability but as an athlete that loves what they do. I love you’re [IOU Sports] website as it’s taking ownership of being a woman and taking pride in that while competing in sports. I just hope my message comes across in that way.

What’s clear as I share this interview with you as well as reflect on my time with Alana then and since then is that she’s on a journey of taking ownership of not only what has happen to her along the way— both good and bad, but she is also taking ownership of her role in the adaptive sport movement. I don’t feel like it’s my place to say what this role is since I think Alana does this well and is still in the process of figuring that out. I’ve always been a believer that action speaks louder than words, despite my love for them and my passion of composing them together. However, I think the best compliment is when others notice. And, believe me, others are noticing. In fact, Alana was just nominated for a 2010 ESPN ESPY Award for Best Female Athlete with a Disability. Even as a friend of Alana, I was humbled by the experience of interviewing her. It was powerful, motivating, and emotional. I feel honored to tell her story. I leave you with a poem I wrote shortly after our time together:

With a smile that illuminates the room, Alana glides…

With an energy that is infectious, Alana glides…

With a perseverance that won’t die, Alana glides…

With a spirit that shines, Alana glides

As she glides through life, Alana is a woman that reminds us that setting the bar high is what life is all about!

Click here to see Alana’s advice to young girls and women.

CALL 2 ACTION: Vote for Alana as the 2010 Best Female Athlete with a Disability here. An then, watch the ESPYS as they broadcast live on ESPN from the Nokia Theatre in Los Angeles on Wednesday, July 14 at 9 p.m. ET.

Part 1 of 2 | My Interview with Alana Nichols: Making the Impossible Possible

In an effort to tell the untold stories of girls and women in sport, I present the story of Alana Nichols—granddaughter, daughter, sister, and friend—a woman who has overcome physical odds and triumphed as not only a Gold medal-winning Paralympian in both the Summer and Winter Games—the lone American woman to do so—but also as a leader in the adaptive sport movement. I hope her story inspires you that anything is possible. That said, I dedicate this post to those who have inspired and influenced Alana along her journey and in particular her Grandma— Joan Vilven—and brother, D.J. Nichols (29), who died unexpectedly in June 2009.

It’s November 19, 2000 and Alana Nichols is a senior in high school skiing in the Colorado backcountry with her friends. Although not new to the sport of snowboarding, she will be the first to tell you that she was getting good, having been boarding for five years, but not a professional by any means. And, this is where my interview begins…

Jillian (J): If you don’t mind, tell me about your accident and your athletic experience prior to it…

Alana (A): … I started playing sports at five years old. My grandma signed me up for T-ball … and I think there was just a love of sport from the very beginning …, I reacted in such a way that my spirit knew it, I loved it! And, I was so competitive … I was always like put me in. … I loved to bat, I loved to play, and I loved to run. I then started basketball and volleyball in the 4th grade and I played year-round sports ever since … until I broke my back …, so I was very much wrapped up [in sports] …my identity was as an athlete.

The day I broke my back I was definitely pushing the limits, and I think that’s what makes a good athlete—always trying something, within reason that is out of your comfort zone. Unfortunately when I broke my back—I can say this now— … it was an ill-advised decision. … I decided I was going to flip a back flip for the first time. It was early in the season … and we were just being careless. … I don’t like to pull anymore meaning out of it then there really is but I do know I’m always aware of my energy now as an athlete, especially as a ski racer, I really try to make decisions based on how I’m feeling. Like towards the end of the day, the day of my accident I was tired and I hadn’t even eaten … and I just wasn’t sharp. If I had thought about what I was doing as something of huge consequence, I probably would have said that’s a bad idea but … I own that now, because I feel I have learned so much from it.

My accident was a huge learning experience. I don’t blame myself anymore. … I hated myself for what I did to my body and what I had done to my life. Because I had really thought at that moment that I had ruined my chance to live … and I didn’t have anyone else to blame … it was all my decision. It’s been a long process of trying to take ownership of that while also making the most of what I do have … that I do have half a body that works and there are some people that don’t. I can get in my car and I can go where I want and I can wake up and get myself out of bed and dress myself. I’m nine years post injury now and I’ve gained a huge amount of perspective as a person with a disability and as a person that’s really blessed.

(J): What has allowed you to stay positive and look forward and as you were saying, take ownership?

(A): … at 17 that’s just something everyone is trying to learn regardless of trying to have to deal with a new disability or anything. … I grew up in a family where I wasn’t really given any excuses or any handouts. My grandma raised me. …she gave me so much freedom to behave like I wanted to and I knew that no one else was going to do it for me. When I broke my back, my grandma wasn’t going to step in and make everything better, she helped a great deal, but she wasn’t going to come in and enable me to be disabled. She wasn’t going to let me just hang out. … I just knew … it was up to me to do what I can with what I was left with. That’s one thing that kept me really positive. It’s interesting because when I first become disabled I compare it to being reborn because I literally had to learn how to sit-up again. … And then, I had to learn how to get from my bed to my wheelchair and … there were days I made zero progress and actually moved backwards and I ended up crying the whole day and I threw my hands in the air. Then there were also days … I was like, “Okay, this is the task at hand” and I started making progress. That’s what started things moving and sort of kept me positive.

(J):  You’ve mentioned your grandmother a few times, I’m wondering if there is anything specifically you want to say about her influence on you as well as what motivates you?

(A): My grandma … she’s just one of the strongest women I’ve ever met. I say that partly because she’s taken on some huge challenges in her life, including raising me and my sisters after my mom couldn’t do it. I hate to admit but I was not the easiest kid to raise but she hung in there. She’s just been such a rock. I know that whatever happens to me that she would be able to deal with it … she’s so strong like that.… I learned a lot of that—strength and focusing on the task at hand—from her. When I broke my back, I knew what I needed to do. There was never really an option in my head that I couldn’t do it. It was like I’m doing this, I will do this. My grandma was such a positive presence in my life at that time because that’s what she had always done. Her strong-mindedness is what really inspired me to be the same way. She brought that presence of you will and that’s what inspired me.

(J): Changing directions slightly, how did you transition from trying to sit-up in bed to actually getting back into athletics and being an athlete in the adaptive sport of wheelchair basketball?

(A): Ohh, the transition wasn’t easy and being an athlete yourself, you might be able to relate to not being able to do what you want to do and when I was first introduced to wheelchair sports I had this deep desire to be moving but being in a wheelchair just didn’t allow for that. I hadn’t had cardio in so long I needed to get my heartbeat going. I needed to sweat. That was the thing that I was itching to do. I ended up playing wheelchair softball, which was my first adapted experience in sport and it was a terrible one. I was a softball player prior to my accident. It was my main sport and I was on par to go to college and play collegiate softball, … so naturally people thought I should try out wheelchair softball when I learned what wheelchair softball was it broke my heart because you play in a wheelchair first of all, you don’t use a glove you use a big rag ball and you hit with one hand. And I was like, “No, this is nothing like what I used to do and it doesn’t compare and I hate it.” I cried and it was devastating because it just highlighted that I was in a wheelchair and I couldn’t play softball anymore. There was a good year between that day I tried wheelchair softball and I was introduced to wheelchair basketball. During that year I was just trying to figure out life, what am I going to do? Because I had figured wheelchair sports were going to suck all-around.

I got introduced to wheelchair basketball it was something challenging for me because a basketball wheelchair, it allows you to move fast. It has wheels that are slanted. It has a wheel in the back so that you don’t fall backwards. It has straps that you hook up into your hips and at your knees, so you’re like connected to this wheelchair and … it’s technically a wheelchair person’s equivalent to running and I loved it. I’m going fast and I’m moving myself. That was when I first got cardio and I was sweating, this is awesome. It was also the first time that I met other women in wheelchairs that were also athletes. All these things came together for me… we can compete again, we can challenge each other and get better, we can sweat, we can win games, and we can compete against other basketball teams, including all men’s teams and beat them too. I was like, let’s do this. That’s when my life really changed because like I said before I was an athlete all my life and my identity was so wrapped up in that, so when I found wheelchair basketball, I really found a part of my identity again. In a different way but in a way that I could be proud of since sport does so much for your psyche and you confidence and for your purpose and meaning, so I just took off.

I found out about this team in Arizona that was an all women’s team that was associated with the University of Arizona and I … ended up moving there a week and half before school started by junior year in college. I had been at the University of New Mexico before that, which is where I found out about wheelchair basketball. When I went to the University of Arizona was when I first got into a basketball chair. For nine months, I learned the game of wheelchair basketball. That was one of the things that rehabilitated me more than any amount of time in a physical therapy or occupational therapy setting. These are able body people who are trying to teach me how to be in a wheelchair and they just can’t do it the same as another woman my age who has had her disability longer than me and was doing it and trying her hardest and was enjoying her life because she had found sport as well. That’s when my life changed. I was like I can love life now. It was still really hard because I have to live life outside of wheelchair basketball and I have to be that girl in the grocery store who’s parents of these little kids will grab their kid out of the way because I’m so scary because I’m in a wheelchair. I’m totally normal, I’m just misunderstood here. I’m that girl and they don’t understand that I was once an able body person yet I could just escape into this wheelchair basketball world where I was equal. It gave me opportunities to make progress and making the US team my first year playing was huge and just made me want to know more and play more and work harder.

(J): Is there anything you want to say about that experience in terms of being on the Olympic team and winning a gold medal…the first time?

(A): … I said this already but the sport [wheelchair basketball] changed my life, period. … It so important to me to help people understand that people with disabilities are still athletes and we’re still capable of doing so much and the opportunities we have in this country to be part of a disabled sports team like a US national team is huge. I look back at how it all played out and I didn’t realize what I was working towards at the time but once I made that US team all these doors opened. I think I understood the weight of what just had happened because my first tryout I made the US team as an alternate to the 2004 Summer Paralympic Games and the moment was surreal because it was my first year and it had been a dream of mine to do that. And it wasn’t so much a dream of mine to go to Athens because I had just started playing. It was a dream of mine to be involved with the most elite wheelchair athletes in the country, so that was perfect for me because I worked hard while those girls were working towards Athens. I was working just as hard because I may or may not have gotten called to go. So I had to keep myself accountable in that way and that season was such a great time for me because I laid that foundation for hard work. I never knew if they were going to call me or not but I needed to be prepared and what were my standards going to be in terms of preparation, so I just worked my butt of that year. That really prepared me to stay on the team until the 2006 World Championships in Amsterdam, which was my first international basketball competition. We ended up getting the silver against Canada, which stands out because I hate to lose.

But then playing and working towards Beijing for a whole five years was one of the coolest goals I had ever set out to do and when we did win that gold it was so valuable to me because of how much work I had put into it and it was just a relief because of all the anticipation going into it. When we were in Beijing for the games we had gone into that tournament undefeated. … we ended up winning the gold on an undefeated season. Wow, such a moment of joy and relief all at the same time like I explain it to people that it was more relieving than it was like, Yeah, we just won a gold medal!” I was like, “Sweet, it’s over.” It was so hard but also this great sense of accomplishment. And one thing, I love this quote, I don’t know who says it but it’s written in the cafeteria of the Olympic training center in Colorado Springs. It says something like, “What is a gold medal? It’s a trinket, it’s a material object but what matters is the great friends you make along the way and the growth that you make in your own athletic career and that’s what makes what a gold medal is.”  … the gold medal is this physical expression of the work that I’ve done and the experience that I have had and I love that it’s gold. I love that but more importantly, it’s about the people that helped me grow not only as an athlete but also as a woman with a disability and someone that can be proud to represent her country and also proud to be a person with a disability that’s promoting athleticism.

To be continued…

Check out the next post of Just Jillian… for the rest of my interview with Alana Nichols as we discuss her road from the court to the slopes and what’s next for her now that she has won four medals in the 2010 Winter Paralympic Games along with numerous achievements (see below) and once in a lifetime experiences under her belt.


Major Achievements:

  • 2010 Adaptive Athlete of the Year Award— U.S. Ski and Snowboard Association’s (USSA)
  • 2010, March: USOC Athlete of the Month
  • 2010: Gold medal, Giant Slalom – Paralympic Games, Vancouver, Canada
  • 2010: Gold medal, downhill – Paralympic Games, Vancouver, Canada
  • 2010: Silver medal, Super G – Paralympic Games, Vancouver, Canada
  • 2010: Bronze medal, Slalom – Paralympic Games, Vancouver, Canada
  • 2010: First place, downhill- World Cup, Sestriere, Italy
  • 2010: Second place, Super Combined- World Cup, Sestriere, Italy
  • 2010: Third place, Super G- World Cup, Sestriere, Italy
  • 2009: First place, downhill – U.S. Adaptive Nationals
  • 2009: Third place, Super combined – U.S. Adaptive Nationals
  • 2008:  Gold medal, wheelchair basketball – Paralympic Games, Beijing, China
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